Motivation.... where are you?

            Seems i've been writing less and less here. Guess i don't have much to say, then. Or maybe i have too much.
      Couple of days back, i made a gamble and  i could say i lost it. Nonetheless, i've lost someone, a friend. Most likely she left for good or i will not open my arms to welcome her back if she decides otherwise. The rules of the jungle. But in this case, i will miss at least for a while that beautiful child, that i got to know almost a year ago.

      I've been realising that i'm sitting more and more on my ass and i'm not doing anything, a lethargic situation, if i can call it that. I'm not learning new stuff, i'm not doing much. I'll have a rough couple of months ahead of me soon, exams are coming up and i don't know squat. I should get off my ass and start doing some "light" reading, but there's nothing really pushing me to do better. I think i need some waves splashing on the shore, a bit of silent meditation. I can't see the road in front of me, i don't understand some of  my choices, i have nothing to really motivate me.


Enough for now, not in the mood for a proof reading so.... any mistakes done will be left for posterity. As always a song: Metallica-Some kind of monster. Farewell.