Grim days

                  I think i'm slipping back, feeling less and less, the only image i keep is of C. I was laughing on the inside earlier thinking that i'm becoming a psychopath with depressive behaviour, that would be a paradox and a laugh at the same time.
       I've adopted a little kitten a while back, he's about 3 months and a half now. In his trouble some way, he is so cute. I've named him Einstein, after Albert Einstein, the renown physicist. He's all black with a bit of white at the end of his tail. He's a good distraction at times, but....

   I find myself not knowing where i'm going, where to go from here. If i could cry for my own pitty, i would, but feelings are hard to come by these days. Guess the last people that left, these couple of weeks have taken a bigger toll that i thought, on my resolve, on having some sort of feelings and not having the desire to ignore/hurt/kill everything in sight.

    I think i'm.... lost. I think i need C.

And as most times, a song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wu6x8KuPmTk