Haven't wrote here in a while. Mostly because i was just lazy and had nothing really to write down. I still haven't got anything, but i thought i'd show this little corner some love. That's if i know how to actualy show it. I feel a tad tired, these last weeks, months, have passed extremely fast. Uni keeps me busy as hell, that i feel i need a breather from time to time. It just isn't me going to classes almost every day and doing homeworks. A keeps nagging me, though for sure i don't know what to do with her and so called my love life. I.... she's cute, childish in a good way, i could say adorable sweet sometimes. Too bad that those sometimes are short or happen because i've had enough and i fall back, retreat, and tell her to fuck off aka we argue and she realises she's loosing me. Is it that oposites attract that i'm with her? Her psyche is so fragile, so prone to outside stimuli and has so many unresolved issues. I wonder why i can't find someone that knows what she wants and takes it.
Last couple of days i've been prone on thinking of my dream relationship. I might say it's the alpha male behaviour, but it's been like this since ages and i kinda ignore that argument. I wouldn't like a relationship, i'd like a triangle between 2 bisexual girls and me, an equilateral one based on respect and love. Even though, i don't know if i actualy feel it. Haven't disscused this with I yet, and although i've disscused a lot of stuff with her, i know i'm holding back so many others. But then, i don't feel she really cares in learning about me.
Enough for now, i hope it won't take 2 months again untill i'll return.
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