It's in these times i feel closer to the "rest" of humanity. When i'm on the brink of destroying everything i see in my path; or is it maybe my psychopathic side that's bent on destruction and i'm the furthest away? I don't know. I'm suposed to know and understand them, to know how and why they think, i'm the predator. But i'm not almighty and i've been trying for years to be something else. Something in between. Something better. Something better than the bunch i saw and see, in this fucked up world. But what's that brought me , you ask? Well, only pain and misery. I don't know what sins i have to pay for, this much. I can only try to be better.
I'm sad. I don't like being sad. I ... i! She came back with one purpouse in mind, to hurt me, "To hurt back", even though somewhere deep inside (i hope) she knows it's(she's) wrong.
Between shed tears, i'm happy. I happy cause i can, i feel i can contain myself and contain my worst half. Even though the sadness is all around me, in this room.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFjAXvNR0AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZX1Gn0kLsMg
Give it some time, i might be fine, even though knowing what i know, i still miss her. Farewell A, too bad you didn't wanted me back.
