It's been about 20 days since i found a way to drove A away. I'm getting closer and closer to isolating myself completely. I take a look back and i get that feeling that i don't know what's wrong or right. I've always caried it with me, more or less, but this time is different. I think. Is it right to isolate myself like this and don't leave any "finger prints" on this world? Or should i touch more people with my "magic"? In the end i reach that dreadfull motto: don't doubt yourself, idiot(slap over the head), they were wrong, not you. But then i think, how long can i keep this up? How long can i see things the way i see them? Am i missing something and my judgement is faulty? (slap over the head) You're doubting yourself again, moron! I tried to get things to the next level with A and she mocked me; i tried to explain and she mocked me again. This ain't boxing, this is me.... my life, 2 strikes and you are out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TS9_ipu9GKw
I don't really remeber(might be i'm not trying hard enough) where i heard this: good things come to those who wait. And i've been abiding by it for a long time now. I won't go balistic and say nothing has came.... i had.... some pockets of good things, here and there as the time passed by, longer ones, shorter ones, but should i consider them enough? Should i "dream" for more?
I never grew tired of thinking, fighting, breathing...... but i feel it's time to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Rcg8vvFKVY
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