She's back?!

                I couldn't say how long it felt, either a split second or an eternity... but she came back for that time. She came back, this time knowing that she didn't really wanted me and talking as i've expected it from her, mature.
         Little did she knew that i was once so close. So close to tell her, come back with me, take my hand and never let go. Pack your things and let's fly to infinity. Another shattered dream.
   I am a man of little regrets, even if things don't pan out, if things didn't panned out as i would have wanted, i still don't regret it, but i might regret that i've allowed her to see into this corner, some things she doesn't deserve to know.

           http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWeAtLr8bX4

Was i looking for you A? Or was i looking for myself?!

     It's been about 20 days since i found a way to drove A away. I'm getting closer and closer to isolating myself completely. I take a look back and i get that feeling that i don't know what's wrong or right. I've always caried it with me, more or less, but this time is different. I think. Is it right to isolate myself like this and don't leave any "finger prints" on this world? Or should i touch more people with my "magic"? In the end i reach that dreadfull motto: don't doubt yourself, idiot(slap over the head), they were wrong, not you. But then i think, how long can i keep this up? How long can i see things the way i see them? Am i missing something and my judgement is faulty? (slap over the head) You're doubting yourself again, moron! I tried to get things to the next level with A and she mocked me; i tried to explain and she mocked me again. This ain't boxing, this is me.... my life, 2 strikes and you are out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TS9_ipu9GKw

            I don't really remeber(might be i'm not trying hard enough) where i heard this: good things come to those who wait. And i've been abiding by it for a long time now. I won't go balistic and say nothing has came.... i had.... some pockets of good things, here and there as the time passed by, longer ones, shorter ones, but should i consider them enough? Should i "dream" for more?


     I never grew tired of thinking, fighting, breathing...... but i feel it's time to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Rcg8vvFKVY

Sound the Bugle

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vy1izTO8Do8&feature=related

Changes

Changed phone numer---> check!
Changed room to a bigger one---->check! Moving will be done on 15th.
Ignored nonesential personnel----> check!