As i said, i've started going down on parts of the Bdsm world, i enjoy and started chatting up with some people. I even ended up meeting a girl, (hence the title of the posts) but soon got rid of her from my enviroment. As most of the times, i end up meeting older people than me, so, she was older and she thought of herself too much. I was slightly amused how she was telling me about the things she has learned over the time, how wise she was because of the time difference between us. It's been one of the times (i don't get this a lot) where she had a face mimic/reaction on things i was saying and i couldn't pin point what it was. It took me a while but i did manage to figure it out. I say about this, because being me, being able to mimic any reaction, i usualy have no problem in telling what's the reaction of a total unknown person when it comes to it. I liked how open she was about doing stuff and that reaction of her kept me inside untill i figured it out, afterwards i got bored. And when i get bored, i don't use up any more patience in figuring things over so i waved good bye and never talked with her since. But she was right with one thing, men right now are like desperate after a bit of pussy. Jesus. It's almost close to annoying to see how desperate they are.
Anyways, i thought of getting myself some new toys soon. Damn they are expensive like shit, but i'll still buy at least 2, got my eyes on some bondage stuff that i'll definetly enjoy using.
On other news fields, one of my favourite shows might get canceled and when i say might, it's almost sure. I really hope Life Unexpected doesn't get canceled, i enjoy the show so much and definetly, i enjoy watching Kate and Lux, god damn they are gorgeous. :D
Be back sometime soon... i hope.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Another day, another face....
It's been more than a month since the last time i wrote here, i think it's time. I'll try go chronologicaly, i don't expect to succeed, though.
Part one, the wedding:
As i said a couple of times, i had some things to say about the wedding i've had to attend to at the start of september. I'll start by saying that i drooled a little at the kids that turned up to be some beautiful women, now. Like yesterday they where yey high and came to me to help them with homeworks, fix theyr computers or any other childish stuf. Now, they where women, too bad theyr feeble minds haven't grown up like thyer bodyes did, actualy the reverse would have got them a bigger gain on long term. Anyways, where was i, the wedding. One of my "ex"friends started the 2 days long party, with poor attemts to make fun of me, cuz i was ignoring him. Ofcourse i was ignoring him because he's been a retard like 7 months ago: after constantly bashing me to visit him in another town and then kinda throwing me out without a proper explanation, he actualy expected me to still be his friend. I've left him do his thing till the 2nd day, in the evening when i went to him and told him to shut up, or i will start opening my mouth and he knows what will happen then, that i'll make him mad and he won't be able to do anything about it. He stopped and we drank a bottle of wiskey, almost togheter, although he was sat at the other side of the table from me. Now, i was saying something about hypocrisy. Well, there are different traditions about weddings and stuff. The only problem was that everyone either knew another version or made up one, either way, they tried to enforce theyr vision of the wedding on everyone. I smiled everytime i saw this kind of shit going on and that got me smiling almost all the time. Since at some point i got to ride in the car with some girl (though if i would have checked her she might have had balls), i was told that i was going to marry her, though i didn't even knew her name. That actualy got me intrigued and jolly at the same time, i asked some stuff about N and she clearly wasn't the type of woman i usualy date. So the old husks that told me that, where dead wrong. I should really think about a career in photography, since all of the first day i was the photographer and i usualy find myself being the one that is taking the pictures. And since i don't think any of this will make sence to any human being no matter of whatever, i'll end it up saying that at the "party" night i've spent most of it outside, with a glass of wiskey and Fanta™, getting bored or being assaulted by kids that wanted the phone numbers for some of the "girls" i was talking at the start of this post.
I did said something about the hypocrisy afterwards, but for now, that is kida sorted out, i'll just wait and see.
Now there's another thing i wanna adress in this post, something recent. I've always like the bondage and fetish part of sex and (knowing myself) i took a direct dive into this world, these last couple of ~2weeks.(instead in dealing with any emotional issues i have, ofcourse) To be continued...
Part one, the wedding:
As i said a couple of times, i had some things to say about the wedding i've had to attend to at the start of september. I'll start by saying that i drooled a little at the kids that turned up to be some beautiful women, now. Like yesterday they where yey high and came to me to help them with homeworks, fix theyr computers or any other childish stuf. Now, they where women, too bad theyr feeble minds haven't grown up like thyer bodyes did, actualy the reverse would have got them a bigger gain on long term. Anyways, where was i, the wedding. One of my "ex"friends started the 2 days long party, with poor attemts to make fun of me, cuz i was ignoring him. Ofcourse i was ignoring him because he's been a retard like 7 months ago: after constantly bashing me to visit him in another town and then kinda throwing me out without a proper explanation, he actualy expected me to still be his friend. I've left him do his thing till the 2nd day, in the evening when i went to him and told him to shut up, or i will start opening my mouth and he knows what will happen then, that i'll make him mad and he won't be able to do anything about it. He stopped and we drank a bottle of wiskey, almost togheter, although he was sat at the other side of the table from me. Now, i was saying something about hypocrisy. Well, there are different traditions about weddings and stuff. The only problem was that everyone either knew another version or made up one, either way, they tried to enforce theyr vision of the wedding on everyone. I smiled everytime i saw this kind of shit going on and that got me smiling almost all the time. Since at some point i got to ride in the car with some girl (though if i would have checked her she might have had balls), i was told that i was going to marry her, though i didn't even knew her name. That actualy got me intrigued and jolly at the same time, i asked some stuff about N and she clearly wasn't the type of woman i usualy date. So the old husks that told me that, where dead wrong. I should really think about a career in photography, since all of the first day i was the photographer and i usualy find myself being the one that is taking the pictures. And since i don't think any of this will make sence to any human being no matter of whatever, i'll end it up saying that at the "party" night i've spent most of it outside, with a glass of wiskey and Fanta™, getting bored or being assaulted by kids that wanted the phone numbers for some of the "girls" i was talking at the start of this post.
I did said something about the hypocrisy afterwards, but for now, that is kida sorted out, i'll just wait and see.
Now there's another thing i wanna adress in this post, something recent. I've always like the bondage and fetish part of sex and (knowing myself) i took a direct dive into this world, these last couple of ~2weeks.(instead in dealing with any emotional issues i have, ofcourse) To be continued...
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Mama unde esti, bate-ma de vrei dar vino sa ma iei!
Yesterday our little home, Earth has made another revolution movement around the sun for me. I've made "the beautiful" age of 25. Out of the sea of people i know and out of the some i have expected to come and drink a beer with me, none had shown up. I... was somehow surrounded by strangers. At some point, i was sitting there with 6 other people: one of them met her last evening, one i've met her 2 days ago, and the rest 4, i've went out/met them at university for a couple of times. But... they where there, they where there to say me a "happy birthday" that they will prolly won't realise how much it meant for me. And in the end, i'll quote one that was there "i had a lot of fun" and i did. I had a lot of fun dancing with that little blue eyed kiddow that i've met last nigh, i had a lot of fun taking her into my arms and dancing around with her. But i do know i was "helping" her, i was trying to make her feel more comfortable and trust herself and i managed it, at least a big part, and that, i think was one of the best things last night. I said i'll try to go slow and steady, though i might have "scared" her, but that's a totaly new realm for me, i never did slow and steady. I actualy don't know how to act, how to react, what to do next, or in the next second she was with me. And prolly it scares me that because of my training wheels, i will fuck it up, if there is anything to fuck up. As Connery used to say: such is life. I shall see, at some point.
The title of the topic is the chorus of one of the songs, of the band i had the PRIVILEGE to listen last night. I growed up with them, at some point and i had tremendous fun listening to the songs, scream, try to sing (since obviously i have no whatsoever voice) and jump/dance in the same time, while holding Alexandra in my arms and in not even a split second, in the entire night have i spent remembering something from the past. This is the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOFFl2F5I4k&feature=related i'd suggest listening to more than one, i find them good, very good actualy.
On the other end, some people just removed themselfes from the care list. It feels so damn good that i can just do that at the snap of my fingers, they deserve it.
Later edit: oh and yeah, i'll post next time about the wedding i've been to a month ago, the hypocrisy that surounded it and the one afterwards. An interesting story that it amuses me as much as it saddens me.
The title of the topic is the chorus of one of the songs, of the band i had the PRIVILEGE to listen last night. I growed up with them, at some point and i had tremendous fun listening to the songs, scream, try to sing (since obviously i have no whatsoever voice) and jump/dance in the same time, while holding Alexandra in my arms and in not even a split second, in the entire night have i spent remembering something from the past. This is the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOFFl2F5I4k&feature=related i'd suggest listening to more than one, i find them good, very good actualy.
On the other end, some people just removed themselfes from the care list. It feels so damn good that i can just do that at the snap of my fingers, they deserve it.
Later edit: oh and yeah, i'll post next time about the wedding i've been to a month ago, the hypocrisy that surounded it and the one afterwards. An interesting story that it amuses me as much as it saddens me.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Brand new day
I have no ideea what i am doing, right now. I feel disoriented though, i know it's better than how i've been in the last year, untill 3 weeks ago. It's hard being me, actualy it's kinda hard letting go what i've tryed to build in the last 3-4 years, the personality i've worked so hard on. Guess it's something natural, it's hard to let go on what you've worked hard to achieve. Although i still find myself helping people randomly around, i don't feel the same, and i wonder how much it will last, since my good samaritean complex just took another hit these days.
One of the shows i started to watch this fall, Hellcats, had a nice song at the end of it, hence the title of this post. It was Sting's Brand new day, or better said a cover of it with some tweaks here and there, and i've been obsesing like hell over it, most likely because it sums up a lot of the things i'm going thru right now. Here is the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cA46ZNjrzeY&ob=av2e, i hope you enjoy it as much as i do.
Why is it a brand new day? Well maybe because my(the) new and last university year started or maybe because i've chosen that after this year i'll leave the country most likely for good. I've got so many great memoryes here, but they all tend to end up in sorrow and misery. I think i'm tired enough of the fact that more than half my life i've been miserable, i think i want more happyness in it.
One of the shows i started to watch this fall, Hellcats, had a nice song at the end of it, hence the title of this post. It was Sting's Brand new day, or better said a cover of it with some tweaks here and there, and i've been obsesing like hell over it, most likely because it sums up a lot of the things i'm going thru right now. Here is the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cA46ZNjrzeY&ob=av2e, i hope you enjoy it as much as i do.
Why is it a brand new day? Well maybe because my(the) new and last university year started or maybe because i've chosen that after this year i'll leave the country most likely for good. I've got so many great memoryes here, but they all tend to end up in sorrow and misery. I think i'm tired enough of the fact that more than half my life i've been miserable, i think i want more happyness in it.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Bored like hell
I've set up this blog days ago but i just didn't found the mood to write anything, although i had/have a tone of ideeas/stuff to tell. I'll hit the bunk now, maybe i'll write something after i wake up.
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